Not sure what to write...

So I have been out off blogger for a while. I apologize. Not sure why but lately Ive been using and discovering other websites. Most of them are on my links so If u care to try any go for it. Anyways I have been doing alot of activities and I will be performing for the september festivals of the Mexican culture. I will be dancing ballet folklorico and I am very exited.. I will try to have someone take pics so I can post them here for the public view. lol I know hardly anyone sees this site which is mainly why I write many stuff on it that I don't mind people knowing but I'd prefer them to not find out. well Now i'm looking for some websites to get free patterns for sewing skirts. so I have to go havent really found anything. Well Loves For all...

A New Life In Christ

Sometimes, when I stare at the sky in the night, a tear comes out. It runs down my cheek and onto my neck and I feel a shiver come down with it. I feel the precence of someone next to me, I feel someone touching my hand, it's my other half, the precence of myself in the future. A sad and lonely heart that couldn't go far because it was always so shy, a sad me that never got the courage to stand up and do something to become a succesfull being. A soul that was hurt so many times by its own mind, a soul that allowed many to put her down with out ever realizing that they were all wrong. A shameful heart that bleeds inside, the wounds still fresh, for that same soul kept them alive by believing that she was worth nothing to the world, by paying attention to all the trash that was poured over her. Today,I shut my eyes and fall on my knees, I wipe the tears and raise my head, so its stands straight and tall. I get back on my feet and tell myself that this will be the day that those nights, where I cried feeling sorry for myself, will end. Because I feel strong and because I believe in myself I will change my ways, I will no longer let words bring me down, I will not let anyone step on my dreams, I will listen to and follow my heart. I will trust my decisions and I won't allow anyone to interfere with my beliefs. I believe in me, I believe im smart, I believe i am beautiful in the eyes of God, I believe that I can achieve anything I desire, If I set my mind and energy on it. I believe in me, I believe I am not alone, I believe there is always someone there for me, to love and to care, to gide me, and to help me get there. I believe in God and in Jesus Christ, I believe in the Holy Ghost and they are my strength, they will help me start a new life, where I can love myself and love others. They are one and they are with me, they love me and they will never let me down. I will be a succesful woman, I will be a successful mom, I will make my daughter happy and I will make her proud. Today I will begin a new life with God. Today I want everyone to know that I will be strong and there will be no more shame in my heart. There will be no more tears to shed over sad nights cus from now on I am a new person and nothing and no one is going to bring me down. As long as I have The Lord with me I will never be alone. I am a new person in God.

A New Beginning

I have decided to redirect my life towards the light of GOD.

Love Again

why does love knock you down so hard everytime it comes? Why does it have to be that way?
I fell in love with the wrong person before and now I feel it coming again. I can't believe I won't learn from my lessons. I cried so many times before and with out knowing, I did it again. They say there is a love for everyone out there, but im not sure why is so hard to find that someone. I can't stop thinking... my head is spining in place and I don't understand why? my heart beats fast when love comes close. I can't breath when love speaks to me. I can't speak back.

but why do I love if Love doesn't love me back. Love has a love and that love is not me. Is not even close to being it.
The wors thing is that unintentionally I've hurt love when it was close to me. what a disaster I made of what could have been at least something friendly. Love hates me now and I am hating me for makin love hate me.

Gomenasai Lyrics - Tatu

What I thought wasn't mine

in the light

wasn't one of a kind,

a precious pearl

When I wanted to cry

I couldn't cus I

wasn't allowed

Gomenasai for everything

Gomenasai, I know I let you down

Gomenasai till the end

I never needed a friend

Like I do now

what I thought wasn't all

so innocent

was a delicate doll

of porcelain

when I wanted to call you

and ask you for help

I stopped myself

Gomenasai for everything

Gomenasai, i know I let you down

Gomenasai till the end

I never needed a friend

like I do now

what I thought was a dream

a mirage

was as real as it seemed

a privilege

wen I wanted to tell you

I made a mistake

I walked away

Gomenasai for everything

Gomenasai... Gomenasai

Gomenasai

I never needed a friend

Like I do now

Gomenasai, I let you down

Gomenasai... Gomenasai

Gomenasai till the end

I never needed a friend

Like I do now

Japanese Class

Learning Japanese is fun. I love the way the spoken language sounds. I specially love to listen to Japanese Music. My favorites so far are Malice Mizer thought they no longer play as a band. I love Gackt he is sooooo hot. Hyde, He is fine too. Last but certanly not least there is Nana Kitade. Love her music, she has a cute voice and her style is great.

USEFUL JAPANESE WORDS and PHRASES:

Ima _ Now
O-yasumi nasai _ Good night
Nan desu ka? _ What is it?
Ichi _ One
Ni _ Two
San _ Three
Dare desu ka? _ Who is it?
Watakushi _ I
Anata _ You

in my contact list find Dawn she has more useful words too. I posted some that she didn't write so you learn more words rather than the same ones she has.
I'll post more later in the month. learn this tango (words) in the mean time.

DEANNA

Dangerous simile that traps you with charm
Eyes that resemble the stars in the night
An inspiration that can't let you down
Non-ending sweet words spill out of her lips
Natural beauty surrounds her
Angelic being that GOD gifted the world with.