Any ways... I am sitting in the living room, its's all dark and quiet. The only lights are those of the Christmas tree and the computer screen, the only sound is that of the fish's (Nico) water filter. Im just here thinking that this year as been very crazy, and I am thinking that I really want it to be the last year of my life being a total disaster. I don't want to keep on depending on others to be happy I don't want to keep on failing to be a good daughter, and of course a good mother. I want to be a better sister, and I want to be a better friend. But how? I guess I will have to discover that part out on my own as the year begins and as it progresses. I do, however, have some ideas on some of the changes I want to make.
- Not starting next year but as soon as my baby Osiris is born( which could be any day now) i want to start making changes in my living style. I have already made the choices to eat better. I have seen results already as for I have not gained more weight than I should have during my whole pregnancy. So as soon as my daughter Osiris is born I will begin walking my daughter, Neomi, to school, this way, on my way back I can stop by the park and walk for an hour every weekday. I have already told my daughter Neomi about this and she is very excited about walking to school, so I'm sure it won't be to hard to keep up with this plan. the reasons I put this first it's because I have many issues with the way I look physically. even though I no longer feel like my physical appearance is something that causes depression in my life, I know that i will feel much much better with myself if I do this for me. I want to be able to wear all that cute clothes that I like, and have energy everyday to get out there and meet new people with out feeling like all they look at is my big body.
- This brings me to the next point. This next year I really want to make some changes in my hobbies. I want to continue blogging, but I want to take it to the next level. I want to start being able to upload videos where I talk about issues or progress in my life. I currently don't do it for the same reason above (image issues). I want to continue watching tutorials from the lovely ladies I follow, and as I finish a project, i want o keep talking about my experience doing it and sharing it via my other blog. But... one of the experiences I want to talk about and I want to record and keep updating and blogging about will be my challenge and success with the new changes in my lifestyle. I want to record weekly, biweekly, or monthly (not sure) all my progress, or maybe the difficulties i have had. I will most likely do that via this blog since its more personal however I might consider doing it on LOPEZ Blog since I want others to be able to see a success story and feel like they too can do anything they desire. I guess I will have to really think about where to post it.
- Well some of the other projects that I want to do via LOPEZ will be the scrapbook for Osiris, like I said the projects i do from other tutorials, and well I also want to start working on the Trip to San Felipe scrap, and the siters scrap! I will also try to do monthly updates of just about anything important I feel I should share. (like this) And I want to start a Diary on paper where I can apply all the decorating ideas I have gotten from all the tutorials.
- I have become a real big fan of MIUMIKU MIAU and there are so many things I want to do following her example so I will keep that posted to. Well the way I see it i have many many projects to do for the following year. I will definetly need to manage my time wisely and I am sure I can do it because I really want to make things better for myself and for my two daughters.
I wrote a lot today and I really feel like from here on I will be writing more and more because with all the changes I want to make I will be able to fill pages and pages on any notebook, and I will be able to write and write blogs about all my progresses.
I will be needing lots of will power and discipline, please help me stay motivated.
WITH LOVE,
ME!!!
