you want to see hot?

I want to be in her place...(the one on the left)


I pick front seats


can I ride along with Dasha

I want to sit with them too

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Happiness is just around the corner!

People hear that quote all over the world, in many different languages of course. I myself hear it all the time but for some odd, unknown reason, I keep turning on the wrong corner. I have absolutely no idea how do people do it. What turn do they make that I am missing? I'm actually beggining to think that that hapinness around the corner... doesn't exist. At least not for me.

Why can't he love me?

Every morning I wake up, only to realize that it was all a dream.

That him and I together walked and laughed and laughed.

That him and I sat drinking tea, and that we shared such precious things.

Every day I cry and cry, he only stares, he hurts my heart.

He shows no love, he doesn't care, he looks away, he walks away.

He calls me names, shows no respect.

Every night I go to bed and pray that he would show some love next day.

I lie in bed and wish that things would change in him.

I close my eyes and ask myself... why can't he love me?

Why can't my brother, LOVE me?

Letter for Dawn

Hey Dawn,
I just wanted to ask you, but... it's a mistake... you wouldn't know...

When will I stop being so worthless? When will I love myself enough to feel good about my capacities? When will I be good enough to do what I have to do? What life awaits me, If I can't find the right road? Why am I so useless?

I hate myself! I hate me because I can't do anything on my own. I hate me for writting this and not being able to to give it to you in person. I hate me for crying over nothing and over everything. I hate me for crying now, as I write this.

I just wanted to ask you, but... you wouldn't know... I AM the mistake.

Love you,
Ana Meza

P.S Don't worry about me... you have your own problems.

Language Class!!!

Learning a language can be a lot of fun but when you are trying to learn three different languages at the same time it can get prety confusing. Especially if two languages that you are trying to learn are similar. Even when the languages don't really exist in real life, they can be hard to learn because they are actual new words that you have to learn and new sentence structures. the reason I am saying this is because I am learning Japanese wich is a real language everyone should know that, right? Anyway I am not only learning that but also I am learning a language that was completely made up by my cousin who loves art. lol It's true though this language is very similar to Japanese and since I am studying Japanese I often get confused with some of the words. But like I said I like learning these new things and well I see it as a challange. ^_^

what the...

I'm not sure why I'm writting this here but I just wanted to let the world know that I feel really lonely. I'm always feeling like this but I don't know why or what can I do to not feel like this. I wrote a poem a while back and it's name was Useless I lost it unfortunetly but I remember that I said that many of the things that I do are wrong or at least tha's what others say... no names mentioned... I cant do anything for myself and I know that that is one of the things that really make me useless. I wish I could Vanish from the world forever and maybe like that the world would be better off. I HATE myself and I hate being sad but I can't help it.

I wish I was beautiful like Her...