Tuesday, June 30, 2009

A New Life In Christ

Sometimes, when I stare at the sky in the night, a tear comes out. It runs down my cheek and onto my neck and I feel a shiver come down with it. I feel the precence of someone next to me, I feel someone touching my hand, it's my other half, the precence of myself in the future. A sad and lonely heart that couldn't go far because it was always so shy, a sad me that never got the courage to stand up and do something to become a succesfull being. A soul that was hurt so many times by its own mind, a soul that allowed many to put her down with out ever realizing that they were all wrong. A shameful heart that bleeds inside, the wounds still fresh, for that same soul kept them alive by believing that she was worth nothing to the world, by paying attention to all the trash that was poured over her. Today,I shut my eyes and fall on my knees, I wipe the tears and raise my head, so its stands straight and tall. I get back on my feet and tell myself that this will be the day that those nights, where I cried feeling sorry for myself, will end. Because I feel strong and because I believe in myself I will change my ways, I will no longer let words bring me down, I will not let anyone step on my dreams, I will listen to and follow my heart. I will trust my decisions and I won't allow anyone to interfere with my beliefs. I believe in me, I believe im smart, I believe i am beautiful in the eyes of God, I believe that I can achieve anything I desire, If I set my mind and energy on it. I believe in me, I believe I am not alone, I believe there is always someone there for me, to love and to care, to gide me, and to help me get there. I believe in God and in Jesus Christ, I believe in the Holy Ghost and they are my strength, they will help me start a new life, where I can love myself and love others. They are one and they are with me, they love me and they will never let me down. I will be a succesful woman, I will be a successful mom, I will make my daughter happy and I will make her proud. Today I will begin a new life with God. Today I want everyone to know that I will be strong and there will be no more shame in my heart. There will be no more tears to shed over sad nights cus from now on I am a new person and nothing and no one is going to bring me down. As long as I have The Lord with me I will never be alone. I am a new person in God.

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