Trying to find a moneymaking hobbie!

I've been thinking a lot about crafting. There are a few projects I was thinking about but couldn't really decide.  I had to do a process of elimination, see how that goes and well see what I come up with.

I wanted to recycle old tires to create seating stools.  Figured I could master the technique and sell them to make a bit of extra income.  I work next to a tire shop and this idea seemed great since every week they throw away at least 30 old tires, but GOSH! tires are so heavy! Also, I was doing some research and even though I was willing to invest in the tools that I would need in order to cut and put together all the supplies, some of those supplies can get very expensive.  If I had a bit of extra cash I totally wouldn't mind the high price of some of those supplies but for now I figured I could hold off on that.  I did bring home two tires from the tire shop, I will hang on to them for a while, who know a massive sale may get me some of those supplies for a fraction of the actual price.

I started making some bead bracelets to sell and raise some money for my daughters upcoming sixth grade camp.  I raised 53 dollars so far but I used a lot of material that I already had.  However, Beads are quite expensive too and I don't want to sell to high of a price because I need to raise the money soon. So I would spend more money trying to buy beads than I actually make.  I got discouraged from that too, but I realized in the process that I really did enjoy making jewelry, so that was a pro.
Thanks to that I started looking into other jewelry making ideas, alternatives to beads that is. I found something very interesting that I decided to share with everyone and well in the process document the process.

So in the next post coming up soon I will write about that and have some photos of the work so far. So stick around and check it out.

Tiny house project update 002

Today i just want to write about the project itself. I havent really been looking for much on the project or the land because i believe that questions related to the piece of land itself would have to be adressed with the cash in hand. However i have still been looking into the tiny houses. I believe that the toughest part of this quest would be the tiny house itself. Im not entirely sure how i would be able to pull off the project but i have given myself a pretty good idea of the price of an already built tiny house. Ranging in the 50000 dollars. I would never dream of actually making that happen on my income but i still want to go on.

Soooo, exactly how. Well i have decided that i really don't want to leave sea world. I really do like that job. I struggled a lot to get into it. Soo what i can do is look for another job four days a week in one of them and three on the other one its almost perfect. So that way i believe i can actually save.

 But how? Well if i keep my seaworld income as my primary source then i would be able to save perhaps most of my other income. I would tecnically need only 300 a month more to pull it of. Because that would cover my rent and babysitting.

Its just a plan and the first step will actually be to get that other job. Sooo i think this week i can start that hunt. Wish me luck.

tiny house project update 001

hello everyone i have a few things to tell you and update you in.first off, while i was doing research on the tiny homes i came across Becky's Homestead, a YouTube channel about the life of becky and her homestead.  i was greatly inspired by her and I realized that it is in fact possible to change the city life for a more rural and rustic living.

i still want to live in the tiny home and i still want to build it and design it but i have a feeling that might be a bit more expensive than buying a custom tiny home.  yet i have also though further into the possibility of buying a land where i can build the tiny home(s).  i spoke to my dad about my plans and although he has many concerns with the actual idea of having to get utilities in the property and what not, he seems to be liking the idea. he believes that buying a mobile home would be the best option and i am actually still not to sure about that.  i still want to build my tiny home and live in it.well the idea now is to actually buy a piece of land and when we are talking about that piece of land we are talking about 5 acres or so of actual land.  however i wasn't aware that buying a land has rules and regulations that must be followed.  yet i am determined to educate myself on all this as much as possible so that  i can strike the best deal and find the most suitable land for all my need s and my family's needs.

so i learned that in order to buy a land where i can build on i have to find a residential land.  yet my project doesn't stop at just building my tiny house and living in it, in my property, but also putting the land to work.  i'd like to have some animals and some crops where i can get some food from.  like milk and eggs, and some poultry, as well as some veggies. in order for this to be possible my land has to be residential and agricultural.  and that could be a bit more of a challenge.  yet i am still determined to follow through.

i seem to have support from both my dad and my brother, and while i wished my mom was in this as well, i  feel like the support i have is good enough.  my daughter seems to be excited about this, but i am not sure she knows exactly what means to live on a farm.

well the first step to getting all this started is to actually start saving the money and in order to have money to save up i believe i need more income coming in.  so i have decided to find another job that will allow me to get an equivalent of full time job with sea world and the new job.  with sea world alone, and the 28 hour limit, i would never be able to save enough.  so the hunt is on. i have already interviewed in one place  but it will take them a while before they get back to me.  mean time, i can continue my search and learn more about what i want for my plans.

i am very excited and i am sure that time will fly as i start looking into all that must be done. but like i said before i am determined to get this done, for me and my girls... for my family.

the tiny house project

i know that through out my life I have initiated numerous projects but managed to finish only a few.  however, i am a true believer in myself, that one day, I will be able to finish the one project that will change my life.  this one might be it.

i have been giving it a lot of thought lately.  actually the idea has been in my mind for roughly a year, i want to live in a tiny house built and designed by me.  i know it sounds crazy and I know i downsized heavily from my two-story dream house which i still want, however I believe that i can still achieve that dream house but in a tiny space. i eventually want that big home but i am by no means close at all to getting there, and that is the problem.

i plan to move from California to a desert area like Arizona or Calexico.  perhaps I could buy land there for cheap and place my tiny home there.  or perhaps I can make several tiny houses in one same lot and build a tiny house community in my own land.   who knows, these are all crazy ideas i have gotten recently but what I do know for sure is that i want a tiny house for my family.

i dont know anything about construction so I plan on finishing a course ( once I begin one) on construction and plumbing, this will give me some basic knowledge on what to do and expect, and  I will take it from there.

my dad has some carpentry knowledge and has experience in maintenance so that is a plus; however, since i want this project to be done 90% by me, i wouldn't want to carry any heavy loads of work on him,  i would like him to supervise my project and help me with details I just cant get right. maybe things like helping me pick and choose the best material and tools, things like that.

anyways there is a lot of things to consider before actually starting the DIY tiny house.  today i am doing some research on things I should spend full price for, and checking out designs to get an idea on how i want my tiny house, what kind of luxuries i want, and what would work best to live comfortably in my new home. soon, i want to begin sketching the floor plans with all my ideas in mind, and i am hoping that this time i can actually mange to blog my entire experience so that all my hard work stays documented and all my struggles can help me appreciate the final project.

i would love to see other people get inspired by my project to start their own and the only way to make it happen is by actually blogging the whole process.

the path I have chosen

      I have come to the conclusion that it is time for me to really dig deep into my actual self and figure out what I want to accomplish in life.  I know what I want to do, I know why, and I know who I want to focus on. However, I was unsure of what path I needed to follow in order to accomplish my goals. As a part of my current English 115 class, I have to write a research paper, worth 25% of my overall grade, about the career of my choice. I know I am majoring in Psychology, but was still undecided about what I would focus on...that is until now. Art therapy seems like the perfect career for me. It follows my need to help others feel better about themselves while incorporating my passion for the arts. Therefor I will establish some of the short term goals I will be working on and in the near future will be posting additional updates on how everything is going. 

     I have been doing some research about the actual career and have realized that I am actually headed in the right direction so far.  I am majoring in Psychology with a minor in Fine Arts.  I will need additional licensing to become an actual art therapist but on the mean time I will have completed my psychology education and some child development education in order to begin my training.

     My first goal is to start working in the childcare field, obtaining a special permit that allows me to work in a child care facility. I will need to take 4 courses in Child Development, a total of 12 units and then I can submit my permit.  I will continue working on my major but in case I get held back for maternal needs I will have a better income source with that permit.  I am hoping to accomplish this  by no later than next year at around this time of the year.  I will be starting this winter with one of the 4 courses and follow up next summer with another two  courses, and attempt to take my last class either next fall or on the next winter break if there is one.

My next goal will be to transfer to SDSU.  I am still going to focus on my first goal and will not make any additional planning as to ho I will transfer but I am hoping that by the end of next semester I have that planned out already. 

my third goal will be to start taking additional courses in art. and hopefully by then I will have a clearer vision of what will be expected to fulfill my long-term goal Art Therapy.


on a side note I would like to establish that I have found an amazing university that has a program for Art Therapy. It would be a dream come true if I ever made it to that university. it is the Goldsmiths University of the UK. I am not going to say that that will be in my plans because I would lie however I do believe that if I had or ever have the opportunity to do so I would no doubt it. 

To finish up this list of goals I want to state that while I am writing these as a reminder of what I want to accomplish and to leave  detailed list of steps to accomplish my first goal by certain date, I can't control what the future might have reserved for me, but I can make my best everyday to accomplish this.

STUDYING FOR ENGLISH

WRITTING ELEMENTS TO KEEP IN MIND

1. purpose

2. audience

3. voice

4. medium

TYPES OF WRITING

Expository: explain an idea or theory or explore a question

Analytical: analyze the context or purpose of a text

Technical/Scientific: to report the process an experiment or lab results

Business: to provide the status update of a project or work

Persuasive/ argumentative: to persuade people to think the way you think to make them understand your point of view  or to encourage people to take action

Expressive: to express personal experiences or feelings

Narrative: to tell a story whether it's real or not.


COMMON READING STRATEGIES

1. skimming through

2. looking for information (or specific points)

3. close reading (carefully analyzing the context in the reading)

KEY POINTS FOR CLOSED READING:

1. read multiple times

2. look for common ground (things you already know/have head of)

3. question and challenge the reading

4. write as you read (annotate, mark the text, highlight)

5. remember critics will read your writting


(this information was my understanding from the book "Keys For Writers" by Ann Raimes, Susan K. Miller-Cochran; seventh edition, Part 1 The Writing Process pp. 3-10.  I interpreted what I read into my own words as a form of studying for quiz in an English class. It is by no means my work. Thank You)

new year 2015

today is the last day of the year 2014.  I am very pleased to say that many good things happened to me this year.  one of the best things was being able to be a part of my daughter Neomi's everyday life.  I was able to be a full time mother and I felt really proud of myself.

 another one of the best things that happened this old year was receiving the blessing of a new life.  thats right, my newborn Osiris.  Osiris was born on December 19 of the present year 2014.

these two young ladies are my reason to believe that this new year will be filled with new challenges and joys.  it will be filled with many new blessings and many more happy moments.  I am really looking forward to seeing what the new year will bring.

i don't regret anything that happened this year 2014 however i do know that many things that I did throughout the year I want to change.  there are many parts of my life that I want to leave behind so that i can start a fresh new life this new year.  my goal for the 2015 is simply to stay focused on all the goals that I have set for my future.  I have many new goals for my life that include my two daughters, where there is no room for failure and for bad habits.  I am very please to say that i feel very proud of myself for making the choice to change my life.

well I have nothing much to say just that I wish everyone a happy  new year 2015

 

CHANGES!!!

Today is November 30! I placed my Christmas tree along with my sister and of course my daughter Junieth.  It was FUN!! even though there was no theme for it, it turned out looking lovely.  It's full of color and it has many many ornaments.  Nothing really matches, however I believe it looks gorgeous the way it turned out. 

Any ways... I am sitting in the living room, its's all dark and quiet.  The only lights are those of the Christmas tree and the computer screen, the only sound is that of the fish's (Nico) water filter. Im just here thinking that this year as been very crazy, and I am thinking that I really want it to be the last year of my life being a total disaster. I don't want to keep on depending on others to be happy I don't want to keep on failing to be a good daughter, and of course a good mother. I want to be a better sister, and I want to be a better friend.  But how? I guess I will have to discover that part out on my own as the year begins and as it progresses. I do, however, have some ideas on some of the changes I want to make.  

• Not starting next year but as soon as my baby Osiris is born( which could be any day now) i want to start making changes in my living style.  I have already made the choices to eat better.  I have seen results already as for I have not gained more weight than I should have during my whole pregnancy. So as soon as my daughter Osiris is born I will begin walking my daughter, Neomi, to school, this way, on my way back I can stop by the park and walk for an hour every weekday. I have already told my daughter Neomi about this and she is very excited about walking to school, so I'm sure it won't be to hard to keep up with this plan. the reasons I put this first it's because I have many issues with the way I look physically. even though I no longer feel like my physical appearance is something that causes depression in my life, I know that i will feel much much better with myself if I do this for me. I want to be able to wear all that cute clothes that I like, and have energy everyday to get out there and meet new people with out feeling like all they look at is my big body. 

• This brings me to the next point.  This next year I really want to make some changes in my hobbies.  I want to continue blogging, but I want to take it to the next level.  I want to start being able to upload videos where I talk about issues or progress in my life.  I currently don't do it for the same reason above (image issues). I want to continue watching tutorials from the lovely ladies I follow, and as I finish a project, i want o keep talking about my experience doing it and sharing it via my other blog.  But... one of the experiences I want to talk about and I want to record and keep updating and blogging about will be my challenge and success with the new changes in my lifestyle.  I want to record weekly, biweekly, or monthly (not sure) all my progress, or maybe the difficulties i have had. I will most likely do that via this blog since its more personal however I might consider doing it on LOPEZ Blog since I want others to be able to see a success story and feel like they too can do anything they desire.  I guess I will have to really think about where to post it.

 

• Well some of the other projects that I want to do via LOPEZ will be the scrapbook for Osiris, like I said the projects i do from other tutorials, and well I also want to start working on the Trip to San Felipe scrap, and the siters scrap! I will also try to do monthly updates of just about anything important I feel I should share. (like this) And I want to start a Diary on paper where I can apply all the decorating ideas I have gotten from all the tutorials.  

• I have become a real big fan of MIUMIKU MIAU  and there are so many things I want to do following her example so I will keep that posted to. Well the way I see it i have many many projects to do for the following year.  I will definetly need to manage my time wisely and I am sure I can do it because I really want to make things better for myself and for my two daughters.  

I wrote a lot today and I really feel like from here on I will be writing more and more because with all the changes I want to make I will be able to fill pages and pages on any notebook,  and I will be able to write and write blogs about all my progresses.  

I will be needing lots of will power and discipline, please help me stay motivated. 

 WITH LOVE,

 ME!!!

One year with HER!

     Last year, on September 11, I was able to get my child's custody back. I remember how many times I cried because I felt really bad leaving her with my mom.  I also remember how much I resented my mother for making it so difficult for me to get my daughter back.  Today, however, I understand that it wasn't my mother, but me.  I was the one that kept making mistake after mistake. Yet, today I feel so happy to finally be able to be 100% mother. I missed out on those four years without my baby, but I never ever want to be without her.  

     It has been a challenging year because, I have to learn how to be a mother again.  All the responsibilities that implies being with  my daughter.  I have put her through unsafe and unsanitary conditions because I was still not getting the point of what being a mother is all about. We were homeless for a while going from home to home. I am not proud of that.  Today, even though we are back with my mother I am taking all the responsibility for my daughter.  I didn't know how much I loved Neomi until now.  I know that I never ever want to let her down, ever again. 

Today I look back at the past and I realize that yes, I was a bad mother, and yes I neglected my daughter, and yes, I abandoned her, but I suffered a lot without her too. I see today that I hurt myself more than I thought, worst of all, I hurt my little angel.  I know that someday she will be able to understand many things, and I hope that she will be able to forgive me. I still can't forgive myself even though I know that I am doing things better now, and even though that I know that I have made the right choice by realizing how much I needed my daughter next to me, and fighting for her to be by my side once again.

She is a happy little girl today and I am very grateful for that. I just want to keep on making each day a day for us and a day to be together and hug each other. I love my daughter. I love my Neomi.  

There is one more thing that I did wrong, I hadn't mentioned it. I am pregnant again from a man who will never care for his child.  However, I promise myself and my daughter that it will be the last stupid mistake that I will make again.  Neomi and I are now expecting a new baby girl at home.  She is very happy, I AM TOO, but I know that it shouldn't have been like that.  Yet after realizing that I had messed up again I decided that I don't want to live a life like the one I had been living.  

I am positive that I want to dedicate my entire time to take care of the needs of my two baby girls.  Neomi and Osiris.  "So Heavenly Father, I thank you for allowing me to make my life better, I thank you for giving me the opportunity to be with my daughter once again, and I thank you for all the blessings that you give me every day. I just pray to you that you may guide me through this new life, I pray that you may give me the strength to fight against temptations and that you can give me the strength to move forward with my daughters.  Please bless my Neomi and make Osiris be born healthy.  Bless my family and all those who need your love.  I pray this in the name of your beloved son, Jesus Christ. Amen"

uncomfortable situation

Lopez

what do you do when you find yourself in an uncomfortable situation?

what do we do when we find ourselves struggling to get up every day?



I thought everything would be good, there where so many promises made.  so many things that where said that really made it easy to fall for someone. but what happens when you decide to make the commitment and everything becomes a lie?  all the things you where told and all the promises flew away.  I am not sure what to do everything changed and I really want to make things right for us but I am not sure what to do at this point.

my life has become so sad, I live in fear, I don't feel free to do what I like.  I don't want to live like this but I am afraid of what could happen if I ever left.  maybe things will be better with me, but what a bout her? what about that innocent girl that sees everything?  she doesn't have to suffer because I make mistakes. true I was warned about all this but I cannot escape.  I care for him a lot but I am not sure how much he cares for me.  he sais soo many things and says that he loves me but where is the love when he gets angry? where is the feeling of caring for someone when he disagrees with what I believe?  what should I do?  I need some advice I need some help?  HELP!!! please somebody just help me decide what to do.

A NEW OPPORTUNITY

This upcoming Wednesday September 11, 2013 is the twelfth anniversary of the twin towers bombing.  an always remembered date for all who were present in the USA to hear the devastating news.  many tears were shed and many people were left behind to remember forever that tragic event that killed hundreds. 

 

this upcoming 9/11/2013 I will be standing before a judge at court to receive the custody of my daughter.  I have been struggling for 4 years to get back up on my feet and be able to hold my head up and step up to fight for my daughter.  I will be facing my blood my mother before the judge a battle for my daughters versus my own mother. I am nervous but confident that I can come out of that court successful.  I have fought so much since I have had many good comebacks, I graduated high school I am working I live with my daughter I am taking full responsibility of her and I am also a full time student.  I have dedicated four years of my life to become worthy of being called a mother and I am not willing to give up.  I just want to come out of there with my head tall and my daughter by my side.  I don't want to have any negative taught and I want to believe in myself that in the worst case scenario I will be able to stay calm and keep on fighting for my daughters well being.  so that we can be together for ever fighting against the world to become the very best women in our familia  its just her and I and I want us to start a legacy of strong women who are luchadoras y vencedoras.  women who don't give up. I haven't given up and everything I have done that has been wrong I have been able to learn from and come out strong again.  I am not giving up for my daughter and she will not give up either because I will teach her I will be her instructor and she will learn that the only way to succeed is by walking forward no matter what. 

 

 this upcoming 9/11 is my moment in history this is my time to make a change and to impact my life and my daughters life for ever!

Lopez

 so I just created a new blog its called Lopez you can check it out!!! is just a blog to have fun with ideas and thoughts like I have been doing also personal experiences and what not but I hope to keep up with this new blog more than I have been doing with this one lol so yeah the only thing is that this new blog is in Spanish I will post in English as well but I really mean to get out there to our shy Mexican community!!! don't worry friends I will be making many in English too lol I guess it will all depend on the mood I am  in well good night for now!!!

Thought 4

I feel so happy yet sooo sad.  I spoke to my EVARO today and we had a nice little long talk.  We spoke about me, but most importantly, about him.  He is doing really good he has new motivations and new ways.  he is doing things better!!! He laughed with me and well I enjoyed our talk. But on the real side I am devastated to find out that is true that he is going out with an older woman.  he met her at the club and well even though she is married he is ok with that.

I new that he would eventually find someone else but a married woman? that I never really imagined from him. I am scared that he may fall in love with this woman and that I will never be able to get to be back with him...

in  two weeks we will be married for one year already and I am happy because even though we are not together he is still mine by law and that gives me some type of hope.  I love him sooo much and all I want is to be with him and forget about everything but this time i want things to be different I really want him to fall in love with me first and then maybe we can go back together.  Small things make great things!!!

Thought 2

So Nana has decided that she will give herself another opportunity to love. She will allow herself to start a romance with Takumi. I don't blame her he is like soooooooooo HOT!!! She is totally into the same type of guys that I am because OMG Takumi is definitely the best from Trapnest!

Anyways so I really don't know what to make out of that! I know that I would too give a man an opportunity, but I am not like Nana I would give any idiot an opportunity and because she is so beautiful she can get any hot guy like Takumi.  I can't!! Although I guess that just like her I will not be able to forget about Evaro unless I find somebody else.  And again just like her I feel really bad about what people(that is my friends and my family) will think of me. 

I think with me it's different though because I have forgiven him and there's no one else (at least now) that I would want to be with.  I know that if he gave me an opportunity I would go back with him with out even thinking about it twice.  I guess that's why people say that I am soooo easy.   I don't care though I would definitely go back with him after all he IS still my husband.  There is nothing wrong with getting back with your husband...right? well maybe now I'm just making up excuses....

I married him because I loved him, I still do and thinking about him makes me happy and sad, and he always said he didn't want to hurt me and that's why we couldn't be together.  But all I ever wanted was a bit of his attention and I would have been happy even if he didn't love me. 

I guess is bad though that I would settle for a life like that, it wouldn't be fair for him or for me.  I just wish I could make things better.  but how? Hachi I need your help!!!

 

Thought 1

I wish I had a love story like Nana's.  I guess my love story is more like Hachi's. I'm always so careless, I give my heart out just like that without thinking twice about it. Just like Hachi, I got deeply hurt, but I wasn't as strong as she was; I literately tried to end the pain by ending my life, she only thought about it.

I can't believe that I feel so sad today though I should be feeling happy because I got a chance to see him even for just a second, but that has never been enough for me.  I guess that was another one of my big mistakes, I always wanted his entire attention for myself (even though I allowed him to be free).

All I ever wanted was to be yours, to be loved, and to love back. I was so childish, thinking that I could ever make him fall in love with me just by getting him to be by my side.  I think... scratch that, I know that I put too much pressure on him and I lost him.  I should have known better.

I hate to admit it but I lost him because I was and still am an immature little girl who doesn't want to grow up.  Even though I would really like to say that I don't know how. 

I need him so much I feel like I'm loosing energy and I get scared, I always fear myself.  I often think that the one person that could really really hurt me is not him.... but me!

Por Que Sera?

Porque sera que aun despues de tanto tiempo aun te recuerdo, y a pesar del sufrimiento sigo aferrada a amarte? Hoy que escuche tu voz me dio por recordar de nuevo lo lindo que es estar enamorada de ti. Te e echado mucho de menos y apesar de todo el sufrimiento que pase por estar siempre buscando un poco de tu cariño, no te e podido olvidar. Hoy se que te amo! Pero el engaño acabo con mis iluciones y quiero olvidar pero no puedo, el dolor y el rencor siguen presentes en mi mente, y a pesar de que mi ser te quiere perdonar mi corazon no puede olvidar.  Es verdad que el amor puede hacer feliz pero tambien destruye y amarte destrozo mi vida y te prometo que siempre siempre te voy a llevar en mi corazon! No hace falta ni siquiera pronunciar tu nombre pues aun me causa dolor y rencor y delante de la gente yo sigo herida y lo peor enamorada!

Today I was happy!!!

Tomorrow I will be too.

Que motivos devemos tener para procurar los dones espirituales?

A cada uno de nosotros, humanos, hombre o mujer, se nos a otorgado uno o mas dones para un mismo proposito. Nuestro amoroso Padre Celestial nos da atravez de los dones personales espiritiales la oportunidad de hacer buenas obras. Ya sea el don de escuchar para entender al q quiere desahogarse, o de hacer musica para alegrar el oido del q necesita alegrase. El don de sonreir para ofrecerle una sonrisa al q esta triste cualquiera q sea el don otorgado debemos procurarlo porque es un instrumento mas para llevar a cabo el divino plan. No devemos esconder nuestros dones pues nuestro padre nos a dado estos dones a todos, sin ecepcion, para q los utilisemos.

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Que mas puedo decir!

los bukis presiento que voy a llorar http://www.mytinyphone.com/ringtone/1586035/

Los amo a los dos. Y me duele mucho tener que irme pero como dice la cancion "primero Dios pronto volvere".